sad endings to second chances

HOLLA ATCH BOY!!!

Sat, 14 May 2005 21:55:52 GMT

show announcement....

EXTOL
THE SHOWDOWN
THE WINTER SOLSTICE(this happens to be the band i sing in)
and BECOMING THE ARCHITYPE

@ FAT CATS THIS MONDAY
& PM 8$ BE THERE

will be touring the country together and it all starts at our beloved FAT CATS on MONDAY MAY 16. I would very much like to see you there.

just so you all know

Wed, 11 May 2005 07:45:49 GMT

if you are reading this, there's a 95% chance that im totally in love with you as my friend. thank you guys so much for always being there even when i did that one shitty thing...
seriously, i looked through the friends on this, and i can honestly say that most of you reading this mean the world to me, so if you're reading it, i mean it. thank you.

clean sheets and sweet dreams

Fri, 29 Apr 2005 09:36:16 GMT

i am not allowed to speak to girls anymore. they confuse me. and still worse, i confuse them.

im coming home from april 1-15. i would really like to see the people that id really like to see. i cant wait to sleep al day and not drive for 7 hrs a day. i cant wait to fall asleep listening to my mom read her bible or books on flowers. i cant wait to hold my hannah. if i love you, i cant wait to spend time with you.

ok so heres the thing

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 06:27:44 GMT

we're now on tour with as i lay dying, throwdown, and all that remains. the tour is amazing. we havent played for less than 400 kids yet and the shows are only getting bigger as we go. so pretty much my life is awesome right now. the guys in the other bands are awesome to us and i cant get enough. i miss everyone back home more than im enjoying myself though. i miss you guys...i really really do. why arent you all on tour with me???

PS. HANNAH FUCKIN RULES MY FACE OFF
PSPS. LIZ ROCKS MY WORLD

STEVE WALDEN

Wed, 09 Mar 2005 19:36:58 GMT

STEVE. I LOST YOUR EMAIL AND HOME PHONE. SEND IT TO ME PRONTO SO THAT I CAN CALL YOU AND DISCUSS OUR PLANS TO TAKE OVER THE GOVT. THANK YOU.

WINTER SOLSTICE: THE FALL OF ROME: MARCH 8TH

Mon, 07 Mar 2005 04:49:18 GMT

Yeah, yeah, so what if im not on the cd. if you guys buy it and we sell enough, then we are supposed to rerecord it with me. so that is all the more reason to go buy it and tell your friends to buy it and their friends too.

WINTER SOLSTICE

"THE FALL OF ROME"

MARCH 8TH 2005

you can pick it up anywhere awesome cds are sold.

i love you guys back home. damnit dann. cooter lickin chris. monkeyspunk mike. mutilated mouse boy. drawbridge drewy. cuntrag candie (oooh i hate this one). jealous jenn. and of course the one and only tirangle mouth (whom i miss dreadfully)

look what ya did ya little jerk

Wed, 23 Feb 2005 07:52:11 GMT

well. im on tour again, now im in a band and its going really well. my voice sounds like shit, but thats not a big deal when kids dont know the words and all i do is grunt and scream anyway.

tonight in fredricksberg VA a fat kid was monkey dancing and stopped next to the crowd so as not to hit anyone. he then continued to monkey dance when the mind altering chugs of a breakdown took control of him and made this second fit of monkey dancing irresistible. he spin kicked into a girl that was about a 5th his size and merrily monkey danced away. little did he know that by viciously kicking the 5th sized girl in the ribs, he interrupted her breathing pattern enough that she began dry heaving and had to go outside in order to not die. this all, of course isnt terribly uncommon at shows, but the reason im telling this story is throw in the fun part about the fat monkey kid. on the back of his fat ape-like, stretch mark covered legs he bore a tattoo that said "jesus christ hard core". now maybe im confused, but i feel that as judgment, the monkey kid should be spin kicked in his fat face by the lord of all darkness for all of eternity for hitting the poor little 5th girl and for blatantly making jesus look like a stupid asshole, which jesus clearly isnt.

on another note, at some of our shows i say movie quotes to the kids and give those who can tell me what movie the quote comes from a free tshirt. thought dann would enjoy that. the next one will be from willy wonka and im happy about it.

i miss you all and love you like i love the last wipe of toilet paper that comes away clean.

dude!?!? wtf?

Sun, 06 Feb 2005 15:38:28 GMT

so im in a band on metal blade records and its pretty much awesome. im in a band again. we're on metal blade. i really dig our music and we're about to kinda pretty much blow up. my walk with the lord has been shittacular and i cant really say that things have ever been better. i dont know that i understand all these things, but i know that they are happening for a reason.

i miss everyone back home. i love all of you and cant wait til i come through town in april. til then please pray for us or remember us in good thoughts. thanks for the congrats and all that stuff. you guys, my friends pretty much own my balls.

things to pray for:

1. my voice
2. hannah lynn
3. moms brain
4. love
5. love
6. my friends.

AMEN

www.wintersolstice.net

you can dance if you want to

Thu, 27 Jan 2005 18:18:47 GMT

SHOW ON SATURDAY GO OR SUFFER THE PUNISHMENT OF BEHEADING
(none of that crap about not having money because if it matters youll find the cash)

DIECAST
HOODS
SINAI BEACH
AND LAST BUT FOR SURE NOT LEAST

WINTER SOLSTICE

january 29th
fat cats 7pm

im sure ill see you all at the show.
plus its my going away party

and so it has been decided

Thu, 27 Jan 2005 18:15:45 GMT

and so it has been decided. the choice between the loved one and the lover.
the choice between the lover and the brother.
ever has distance evaded our companionship.
ever have we danced around our differences.
apparently no more.
apparently those things that in one mind were so treasured
in this mind were worthless endevors.

it has begun,
the end, it has begun.

aww crap

Sun, 23 Jan 2005 15:37:20 GMT

man i knew it....

Regina George

Which Mean Girl are you?
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the end is the begining is the end

Sat, 22 Jan 2005 21:25:32 GMT

i think that things are going to change. and i think theyre gonna do so soon.

watch the omen, gangs of new york, se7en, the last of the mohicans, and the grudge as soon as you possibly can.

things to pray for:

1.freakin direction!
2.Hannah bear
3.Hannah lynn
4.thank god for my parents
5.moms brain surgery
6.stace and jess
7.thank god for michael

this was almost the distance between us.

Thu, 13 Jan 2005 10:49:06 GMT

to all of my sisters.
the reason i have become a lover of habit is because i have grown tired of living.

to all of my brothers.
the reason i have become a person who is dying is because i have become a creature of habit.

to my only mother.
the reason i have disgraced your beautiful heart is because i am satisfied. a dying man.

soon i will choose to end my life.
forever you will decide to save it.

poets and lovers
sisters and brothers
none of you will understand.
i will kill myself tomorrow
and still you will curse an empty sky.

i wrote this hoping that one of you who read it might understand. none of you will.
that is my curse, that is my curse.

maybe i should become a cynic again. maybe i should just leave.

this is the darkest my heart has been in years.
this is the end.

ive got enough guilt to drown in and tonight is a good night for a swim.

Sat, 01 Jan 2005 10:03:01 GMT

if ever i have lived for one moment of my life, it was the moment i spent with you.
if ever i have died, it was because i knew that i had never met you.
i will not sleep tonight, and music will be my dreams.
your voice brings me comfort.
your presence brings me peace.
peace. peace. be still.

nothing rests when restless hearts are restless.
no one knows peace when hearts are at war.
you and he you are lovers
& you and i
we are lovers no more.

a make shit sonnet brought to you by the deepest pools of despair in a young boys bleeding heart.
bleed heart bleed.

you know what this is about

Sat, 25 Dec 2004 15:45:40 GMT

i love all of my friends. i hope very much that all of you have a totally rad merry christmas. dont forget to tell your families that you love them and to thank god for love.

happy festivas

Fri, 24 Dec 2004 00:56:37 GMT

you cant kill me. im already dead inside.

man oh man

Tue, 21 Dec 2004 16:34:04 GMT

healthy debates make me laugh. so do stupid people

SHOW SHOW SHOW

Thu, 16 Dec 2004 15:39:29 GMT

ok i know this is far away, but please please please take me seriously when i say that it is very important to me and that it will also be a pretty good show.

Saturday, January 29th, 2005

DIECAST - Century Media Records

HOODS - Victory Records

SINAI BEACH - Century Media Records

WINTER SOLSTICE - Metal Blade Records

INCISOR

FAT CATS 8PM

winter solstice is not only a kick ass band but they are my friends. i want them to have a GREAT experience here in houston. so if anyone cares to make me happy that day and wants to see a really good show, please make plans to attend. itll be fun cause everyone will be there and itll be like a big party. PARTY!

www.wintersolstice.net

EVERYONE FUCKIN PARTY!!!

ANANANANANANANANANANANANANANANA

Tue, 14 Dec 2004 20:34:13 GMT

ana is obviously invited to our super awesome super bodacious spectacular hang out time. notice ana my dear that there are two ands simply because i made a typo and my fat little fingers jumped over your name. but dont think for a second that i forgot about my one and only anabear. ill be seeing you soon.

i tried to create a persephone myspace last night. and that website had the audacity to tell me that i couldnt create a page on there without the band having its own page!!!aint that some kind of bullshit?

i cut my own hair today. so if you see me soon, go easy on my lack of physical beauty points.
though i may not dazzle you with my hair and facial expressions, my lava attack will annihilate you and your hit points. and dont you even dare think that your wolves of the wood can fuck with my warlock of the deep. because it cant.
pretty much what im saying is......................................please dont make fun of my haircut?.................

my niece is beautiful. my friends are amazing. movies kick major ass, and music carries my every mood to happiness.

alright, heres the truthful answer to why everything has changed between us

Mon, 13 Dec 2004 15:30:31 GMT

im absolutely terrified of everything.

1.i really want to watch the gangs of new york. im going to borrow it from dann.
2.i miss being on tour more than i realize. im going to carmel sometime in january to see jimmy's first show.
3.it sucks that dimebag darrel died, but im not broken up about it cause im not.
4.im glad persephone isnt still a band, but i so very much miss the guys that were in it.
5. i finally have the money to send steve his book and cd, but they are at the apt and me and my money are here...

candie once told me that i dont really want to be in a relationship like i say i do. she was right.
fuck that.

guy one says "hey have you seen that new movie the terminal?"
guy two replies "im sick"

guy one loves guy two very much

love is like oxegen

Sat, 11 Dec 2004 06:20:00 GMT

i am gasping with every breath i can muster.
i am breathing every one of you in.
this is life.
this is living.
this is love.
and for this love i am grateful.

things to pray about, meditate over, stop and appreciate:

1.friends
2.my beautiful niece and her beautiful parents.
3.my friends throughout the country.
4.jimmy,jason,mike,brennan, and devin.
5.good food/coffee
6. books
7.FREAKIN MUSIC
8.jesus because he loves me, and always will.

"so i sing a soing of love for julia"

evil doers beware

Sun, 05 Dec 2004 08:10:29 GMT

i dont know much about the devil.
but i am fucking terrified of him.

no one i know prays. no one i know cares for my heart.
i thank god for selfless non-believers.
they make my day ok.

i saw dead to fall tonight and it was good to see my friends. im going to kneel by my bed tonight and pray for them.

hannah is fun. i think its for the best that we arent close. we wouldnt understand what to do. i wonder if we ever will be.

the one is my home. i feel more at home there, with my friends than at my apt or my parents house. people are what make home home. without them i would be lost.

"the painted man...he haunts my dreams."
*if drew read the above line he would know what it is from*

girls

Mon, 29 Nov 2004 07:59:44 GMT

all girls taste the same. this is an odd observation since i dont remember how girls taste, but i can tell you for sure that all girls taste the same. i think the day that im super patient and i find a girl that doesnt taste like all the others is the day i kiss my wife.

"f i hear so much as a mouse fart, i swear by god and sunny jesus, that every last one of you will visit the infirmary."

alright you idiots

Fri, 26 Nov 2004 01:56:28 GMT

happy thanksgiving to everyone. i hope that we all eat alot and have good times with friends and family and whoever we choose to spend it with. (my burps smell like turkey and stuffing)

i held a baby for the first time today. she was my niece. my eyes are watering and i love her.

if i asked, "Would you like make out with me?" how would you answer

Tue, 02 Nov 2004 03:55:06 GMT

ok. so im comin home this week. having been gone most of the ladies back home have probably forgotten what i look like. this is in my favor for this reason:

nice as it may sound im not looking for this to actually happen, but hypothetically, if i were to ask all of the young women who read this journal, if when i returned home, there were no strings attathed, would you make out with me? this means, not my personallity, not my assholeness under pressure: just if i were interested, who among you would be interested in return.

micheal, drewy, and dann are obviously excluded because your answer is already known, and has been answered.